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Journals

Bellow, you will find stories that my characters write in their diaries or Journals. The frequency of updates depends on the character.

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Kaegan

February 8, 3014:

Kai is seven months old now! He's growing so quickly, I can hardly believe it. He's started to crawl, neither Miriad or I can keep up with him! I swear if I don't keep a constant eye on him, or keep him in his playpen, he disappears. Millieth has openly taken to Kai, finally. Not that she didn't like him before, but she wouldn't admit it. Having her watching him helps me so much, she curls around our Weyrledge so that there are no gaps in which he could escape through. I've had to baby proof my Weyr. In the beginning, it was very inconvenient, but now I think it's a blessing. Miriad (she works in the Creche, but has been helping me with Kai), is one too.

Its hard, being a single mother. Truth be told I'm afraid. Afraid of whether or not I'm doing a good enough job, of whether or not Kai will grow up to be a good person. It shakes me to the core to think of the future, there are so many possible outcomes for my little one. I want my son to have a father, another person who would love him and teach him, but... I just can't seem to connect with men. In the past, yes, maybe. But anyone who I could have developed affection for has well... died. Its like I'm cursed. There is one other person here, that its possible I could like. But, right now I'm in such a limbo, that I'm afraid I might hurt our friendship in the long run if I do really develop the feelings that hesitate there in my chest. Look, I started talking about Kai and now I've chattered on about myself. Oh well I guess I ... *ink smear*

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K'thay

February 10, 3014:

Its... hard adjusting to Southern life. I can honestly say, Fort is completely different. My arrival (which was a little less than a month ago) was dogged with questions, even before I was checked over by a healer. Fortunately, they looked at Casti right away. Poor beast, he was loosing so much blood. Even now I blame myself for coming up with our escape plan. I guess I was lucky to be able to get refugee status. Casti will have a new set of scars, at least they're healing nicely.

Before the Genocide of High Reaches, I was treated with suspicion. But after? I walk into a room and the air is so thick I could cut it with a knife. Sometimes its as if the feelings around this weyr are tangible. I bet if I tried, I could reach out and touch them. I can't even use a knife or my needles to protect myself if something happens. I strained the muscles in my arm, and twisted my wrist getting here, and although they're almost completely healed now, I still run the risk of re-injuring myself. I doubt anyone would attack me, but still. Never have I been so nervous... except maybe in Weyrlinghood.

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E'rro

-February 7, of the Turn 3014~

Life, sucks.


-February 8, of the Turn 3014~

I can't tell if I'm progressing in my Dragonhealer training or not. I believe I've plateaued. Its annoying the shards out of me.

I'm still wary about being a Wingleader. Shards. What in Faranath's name was S'rei thinking? Sure, the men and women in my wing are somewhat close to my age. But still. Its hard to see how a twenty-three turn old dragonrider is going to listen to a seventeen turn old. I hate to admit it, but my confidence is shake on this matter. I was never groomed to be a Wingleader. I was content with Wingsecond, even being a Wingrider. Sharding Ka'rys. If he hadn't gone and gotten his brains smashed about I wouldn't be in this situation damn it.

Whatever. I'll deal with it. Somehow.

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Saraina

2-11-3014:

Still having trouble with throwing knives. Can't seem to get the hang of it properly. Hokth is not helping with his remarks. Got nicked on the cheek yesterday when I was training in short range combat with another rider. Didn't bleed too badly, probably won't scar. Soleil is progressing with his training, at least one of us is.

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Nautic

February sixth, 3014-

Oh, my, Faranath. This is not good! Not good at all! My beautiful baby Nautsky is starting to glow! No, I'm not referring to her usual moonshimmer, I mean like... a legit Im-going-to-run glow. I've been fretting so much that I think I've been confusing Nautsk. She keeps bringing me flower after flower after flower. She brings me flowers to cheer me up, so I guess my worrying really has been effecting her. BUT HOW CAN I NOT WORRY. I don't want my Nautsky anywhere near those males! I mean, I'm not afraid of Runlust and stuff, that doesn't bother me at all. Its the fact that my baby won't be a baby anymore. I want to cry! But I won't of course. I think the other Wherhandler's are close to punching me in the face or something because of the way I keep fluttering here then there. I can't sit still. At all. I'm not kidding. Even now my leg is bouncing, up and down and up and down. Ahg. All of this anxiety is going to be the death of me. I think I should go take a walk.

OH! Tizzy has finally gotten used to the whole nocturnal gig. But he insists on going with me everywhere. Its a nice change in pace from Absinthe, who is quite irregular on her routines of wanting to be with me... or sleep on my pillow the whole day/night. I try not to wake Tiz up when I get up in the day time, but he's like... an uber light sleeper and always complains about me trying to sneak away. At least I think thats what he's complaining about. Guh. Anyways, walktime. Its twilight so Nautsky can come with me.


February eighteenth, 3014-

Ohkay so I guess I was over reacting. It really wasn't a Runglow, I suppose she was just really healthy or something like that. I really need to get some tea that helps with relaxing, I'm so jumpy now that I have Nautsk to take care of. Maybe I should add willow bark to my drinks...

Anyways, I had a really interesting lunch with the Goldhandler Eikane. Have I mentioned yet that he's actually pretty attractive? Well he is, and we were totally flirting during lunch! I mean really, I haven't been flirted with since before I was a candidate. I've usually been the one who initiated the flirting. I think I actually might have blushed a little. And so anyways, I think Eikane and I have a sortofdate? I mean he phrased it as 'date' but you know, it might actually not be one. I promised I'd make him lunch because apparently he doesn't have much of a hand for making meals. Either way, /I'm/ going to think about it as a Date. That way I can be excited and have an excuse to wear something that isn't so humdrum and dark. Maybe I'll wear my pink scarf. Yeah! My pink scarf, white shirt and brown pants. My tight brown pants. Hahaha. Okay well I got to go to sleep now, I'll write about it when it happens kay?

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Eliah

Month: February Day: 3 Turn: 3014

Um, well. I'm fourteen now, since the 27th. I don't feel much different, I definately don't feel older. I thought maybe I would, but I guess thats somesort of myth. I didn't tell the other candidates about my Birthday. I'm not friends with any of them anyways, so why should they be interested? I was going to go find Dy'shi or Eri on my Birthday and share some pie, but I couldn't find either of them for some reason. I guess I didn't look hard enough. Its happened to me before, not being able to find someone when I know they're around some where. I just miss them and then keep missing them. I guess it doesn't matter much. Its not like I mind. I had Rishin to celebrate with, and she's always really fun to be around. We played fetch in the open area by the Candidate barracks, and we wrestled. She won somehow, it was really funny. She ended up standing on my back and barked like she was laughing at me. Then we went fishing in the river, I caught a few fish but threw them back. Despite being alone it was a pretty cool day.

Month: February Day: 6 Turn: 3014

Today Rishin and I met a cute girl in the Dining Hall. Almost as pretty as Erilena, but not as cool. She didn't seem interested in Rishin at all, which was a downer. Unfortunately she seemed to love Koulko when he decided to show his nosey little head. I'm still trying to get rid of that feline, but he has a cunning that I'm afraid will defeat me in the end. Anyways, I pried Koulko away from the girl after we were done eating and left with a goodbye. I don't like to be mean, but Rishin is far cooler than that cat. The girl could have at least given her a pat on the head. Tch. Oh well. Maybe if I see her again, it'll be different. Oh, note to self; make bed tomorrow morning, and do your work!


Month: February Day: 28 Year: 3014

So I've gotten some work lined up, though I'm not charging anything since most of it is just fixing broken furniture or renewing old wooden statues. Nothing hard like making things from scratch. Right now I'm staring at a Runner statue that has been worn down so much by the passing of hands I can barely see the features that distinguished it, you know the lines on its face and in its mane and tail. Excetera. The body is still there, and so are the limbs... but I'm pretty sure its going to end up a little smaller than it is right now. I have to sand the thing down completely before I can start re-carving it's features. I've only just completed the diagram sketchings, and tomorrow I'll start on the sanding. The other project I'm working on is a chair with a broken leg, easy enough to repair so its taking second place in my mind. I need a bigger chalenge than restoration! I want someone to ask around about getting a custom peice of well anything.

I'm sooo bored. Candidate classes are incredibly so, and I haven't decided whether or not I like or dislike Emoyan. So far he hasn't banned Rishin from the classroom, which is good. But I still haven't made many friends. Not like I really care but.... it would be nice to have some. Anyways... I need to feed rishin. Bye.

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Cavelieran

February 6th, of the 3014th turn.

I think Raidy may be pregnant. I'm not entirely sure. She's seven (I think- She might be a little older), so she's in the green for being able to mate. She hasn't been acting weird, but... Its just a feeling I have. It could be a false reading, but we're pretty attuned to eachother. She's never been pregnant before, so I don't know what Raidy would be like if she were. I think I'm going to have to ask Master Melista to get her Dolphin to check for me, or another Dolphineer. But I would prefer Master Melista to do it... even though she's been working me to the bone for using her in the Storytelling contest. She has the most experience with Dolphin pregnancy. If Raidy is pregnant, it will be joyful news. We have a few apprentices who haven't bonded with a Dolphin yet, so maybe one will grow close to the calf. That is, if there even is one. And if there isn't, oh well. Its just another day in the life of Blossom.

I'm still working toward my Master knots. I'm not going to be content until I achieve them. Sure, it might take fifteen turns to get them, but it will be worthwhile. This is something I love, and I love the people and dolphins I work with. Currently I'm on Lake assignment at one of the farthest Waystations from the Dolphin Hall. I haven't been to this one yet. Moving is always exciting, and its peaceful out here. Its a little lonely living out here all by yourself, but its also exciting being so far away from the Hall. I've lived in Waystations before, so the rutiene of living is easy for me. I of course, have to keep another journal seperate from this one. I also have to catalog the supplies I use, how much I use and the like. Also other boring tasks like charting weather.

But anyways, I need to dry off. I'm dripping on the page and its making some of my ink run. I'm going to take a bath, then say goodnight to Raidy. Then get into bed. I'm tired from exploring my new region and I have to get up early tomorrow. I recieved orders via Fianne that I have a double watch shift early in the morning. Appearently traders think the wee hours of the morning are a good time to come. I do not look forward to the cold water.