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Post by dragon on Jan 10, 2010 19:08:24 GMT -5
-The Issue of Sex – Warning to get integrated into weyrlife and why virginity is a bad thing when with a dragon, adapting holders into weyr lifestyle
Just one Candidate left in this rotation. Emoyan drummed his fingers on the table where he was sitting in the common room. This was either going to be a very short lesson, or a very long one.
However he was half afraid he might never get to the lessons part of the meeting, as it was quite possible that she'd instead have a meltdown over not having impressed - again. So, not really knowing what to expect, Emoyan waited.
He hadn't bothered to prepare any kind of materials, either. For just one student, it was hardly worth the effort. It was easier to just cover everything and answer any direct questions. More of a conversation than a lesson, really.
Meagen
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Post by midnight on Jan 10, 2010 20:04:47 GMT -5
Meagen had been calming down a bit. Something about completely blowing her lid at Mik, had made the female calm down. She seemed more collected then usual. The last of her group, the one that was alone. That didn't seem to bother her as much. Being alone was perhaps not a bad thing. She didn'th ave to worry about anyone bothering her in classes anymore, she did her chores relatively alone, or found ways to make it happen.
As she usually did, she gave the Teacher the respect of arriving on time. She was punctual, and practical in how she treated lessons. Arriving on time was easy, arriving in one piece was much easier then it had been before. She sat down and pushed her bangs back, so her features were uncovered. She stared straight at the teacher, and smiled shyly. Times were changing, the girl was getting better.
"Today's lesson? Rider Emoyan?" She said quietly as she folded her hands in her lap. She could be good for her lessons, it was the least she could afford this man had done so much for her in the past.
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Post by dragon on Jan 10, 2010 21:13:25 GMT -5
Emoyan smiled briefly at the girl when she settled into a seat, and shook his head. "I'm not a rider." He corrected. "Just a Harper, and Candidate Master." Emoyan clarified, straightening where he himself was sitting, folding his hands together. "I am happy to see you made it, however."
"Today's lesson is supposed to be upon the topic of sex, and the role it fills within the Weyr. But I am aware that you are not only from the north, but more specifically from a Weyr. So, let's turn this upon it's ear, and you tell me what you know - or think you know - and we'll go from there. There's not much point in telling you about what you already know." He offered.
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Post by midnight on Jan 10, 2010 21:20:42 GMT -5
"In a Weyr sex is considered a typical everyday thing. In Benden... it was forced." The female started softly, her eyes focused on the candidate master. "Women, and Girls were used for Candidates and workers... and for sex. We weren't guarded like they are here..." She said in a calm voice. Her hands folded in her lap. "It's sad to say, that most bedroom interactions are a mystery to me. I hear that being a virgin on your maiden flight is bad..." She said lightly as she squeezed her hands together tightly.
"To be a Rider, you must be able to deal with anything. But sometimes there are things that people can't deal with. Intimacy with others can be hard, when trust is not there. In a Weyr, breaking that trust can cause many people to lose faith in their leadership. That is what happened at Benden. My life was like being in threadfall. Something happened to me, and I'm glad I'll never see the man again. But because of that, I have not trusted another male enough to let them see me in such lights."
She was trying to get him to understand what happened to her, and then let him know that there was things she knew, and things she didn't. Maybe she needed a good fuck, and a long conversation? Who knew.... she needed something though.
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Post by dragon on Jan 11, 2010 1:06:08 GMT -5
Emoyan heaved a slow sigh. Benden. Oh, how they seemed to screw everything up. "Alright. Let's start there. First, sex is not as commonplace or every day as it may seem. In fact, a lot of riders are more celibate than some holders. However, unlike within holds, in a Weyr it occasionally happens, individually, that dragons fly. Collectively, it seems like flights happen all the time - and they do. But there are also several hundred dragons in any given Weyr. When they do, so to do their riders. Usually only the two directly involved, though a few of the others might find themselves a moth. Not all do. When bonded to a Flying dragon, however, people will do some very strange things... like run around completely nude thinking they can fly. That's normal. They'll come out of it in a few hour's time, and usually won't do it again until the next flight. Which could be months - or possibly even a solid year - later. Now, this is just the part that is tied in with riding a dragon. Outside of these instances, riders are still human. They may - or may not - have relationships to which they attend. However, given the nature of Dragon influence upon riders, weyrmates usually do not get too terribly upset when their partner ends up involved in a flight and sleeping with someone else. Flight sex is just an item, and there's nothing to get worked up over. It was only a mirror of the dragon's drive, after all."
"That said, yes it is generally a bad idea to be a virgin when you impress. But this is simply because a flight can be a scary thing to go into when you don't know what to expect. That is the only reason why. There is no other reason. This fear can cause problems with the dragons, and in some cases, may even cause them to never rise or chase. Because the door swings both way over the link between rider and dragon. You feel what they feel, they feel what you feel. Crippling terror of the unknown can drive a dragon to never answer the call of nature. Which, just as it can do in humans, will completely frustrate them. They will become confused and agitated to a degree that is unstable. Until they pop, and possibly murder a whole lot of people because the hormone level was never released."
Emoyan was not dense, and he picked up on what she was saying - or not saying - easily enough. But it was also not something he could fix. Unfortunately, this coming to light, he might have to talk to some people about. At least get her to see a mindhealer to some degree. To have that kind of trauma lurking under the surface would utterly ruin any young dragon if she impressed. Indeed, it might well be why she was left standing. Hatchlings usually knew what they were about, after all. "Would you go see a Healer if I asked you to?"
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Post by midnight on Jan 12, 2010 2:07:27 GMT -5
Meagen listened to the man patiently. Silence fell over her as she cocked her head to the side. Her eyes watched him intensely, until he was done speaking. She nibbled her lip and then looked straight at him. "Do you really think they could help me? I find the training I do works much better. Just because I haven't had sex, doesn't mean that the things done to me are still effecting me." She stated as she clenched her hands in her lap.
"Actually, I have someone I have an interest in. But I doubt that anything will come of it, he doesn't exactly see me in the same lights that other men might." She stated as she tugged on her pants lightly. Her eyes glaring to the side, as she shook her head gently. She looked straight up at him and then nodded. "I'll see one, if you honestly think it will work." She said gently. She would do anything it took, maybe that was why she hadn't gotten a dragon.
This was something she had to work on. Otherwise she would probably never get a dragon, she would be left alone... Wincing at that thought she nodded lightly, she had her decision.
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Post by dragon on Jan 13, 2010 0:08:21 GMT -5
Emoyan nodded. "I think it would do you a world of good, actually." He straightened, and pulled a piece of parchment over and started scribbling on it in a fast, neat hand characteristic of most Harpers. "Take this to Kalierre." He mentioned, as he wrote. She wasn't actually a person-healer, nor was she a mind-healer. But she was the head healer - and a woman. He wagered an educated guess that this was the best place to send Meagen. "I'd like you to spend time with her, talking over your problem." He glanced at her for a moment, before signing it off. Folding the paper into its own neat envelope shape and sealing it with a bit of wax from a handy candle, he handed it to her. "And if she agrees, I'd like for you to see Raebeli regularly. I think it would do you a world of good, and it can't really hurt anything. So it's worth a try, no?"
"If Kaliere does decide that you should see Raebeli, then you are to see Raebeli until she decides you are stable enough to stand. You see, mental maladies, even this kind, are sometimes worse than physical woulds. You can't see them, but the dragonets can. And if you go out there the way you are, there is a fine chance of you getting mauled. I don't want that to happen to you. When Kalierre and Raebeli sign you off, you come back to see me, alright? Then we will resume your candidacy."
He smiled at her, and patted her shoulder gently, reassuringly. "It's nothing that can not be fixed. As for this lad - I think it would do you good to not bother with trying to forge a relationship with anyone until you get this sorted out. Just as a logical step. Your choice of course."
IC thread with Kali required.
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Post by midnight on Jan 13, 2010 1:14:44 GMT -5
Meagen went deadly still as she watched him writing out a letter. No this wasn't good! She had such a bad feeling about this. Why did she have a bad feeling? Her eyes widened a little as he folded up the paper and sealed it. Then he handed it to her and blinked rapidly. A whimper wanted to rise in her throat as he spoke. Something didn't seem right?
It seemed innocent at first, what he was saying. But then he stated that she wouldn't be to stand! No, this couldn't happen... Oh Faranth no, this wasn't good! No no no! She bit her lip hard, and gathered her emotions in. She sighed softly and cocked her head back, then she stared at him straight forward and sighed. Her eyes closing as she tried not to cry. She sighed softly and stood up slowly.
"I'll do what will be done then, It's for the best I suppose..." She said lightly as she bit her lip. Tears wanted to fall, but she wouldn't let them. "You have a nice day sir..."
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